I never quite know what to expect when I head off to the hospital to get my results. I don’t feel any different than I did before I started on this journey; I feel healthy, I’m active, I don’t seem to be getting slowly worse as predicted, in fact the only physical problems I have are due to the treatment I’ve had.
My last scan was really positive and I’d hoped for an improvement on that. Unfortunately things have got a bit worse but nothing too terrible and a few things were clarified, which helps.
I was told that what had reduced from 24mm (or 25mm) to 20mm last time now measures 30mm. I was also told that my adrenal gland was very slightly larger which may indicate a spread to there. So not the best possible news, but still a bit vague in that I don’t know what it is that is growing and what shape or size it actually is.
So I asked!
Turns out it isn’t a tumour they are measuring it is the glands in my lymphatic system. So I have three glands that are bigger than they should be; two of these are hardly any bigger so are of no concern, the third is 30mm in size (and ovoid in shape) and should normally be 15mm. So I haven’t got a tumour the size of a golf ball in my chest, I have an enlarged gland which is enlarged due to my cancer.
So despite receiving worse news than I was hoping for, I’m actually quite happy with the results. My cancer still isn’t rampaging uncontrolled through my body and it turns out I haven’t got a tumour; its an enlarged gland.
Putting aside the annoyance at receiving yet another sideways shift in the story, I immediately thought about what I can conclude from these results. The only thing that has really changed over the last 6 months is that I stopped taking the apricot kernels. I stopped in mid December and my previous scan was in February, so the effects of them may still have been responsible for the reduction in the size of my oversized gland. I haven’t taken them for 6 months and nothing much else has changed but the gland has increased in size. Conclusion: back on the apricot kernels!
My oncologist and surgeon can’t draw any conclusions as I haven’t received any official treatment for 18 months. In fact my oncologist decided that the previous scan’s results were “unexplainable”. I pointed out that the only change was that I’d stopped taking the apricot kernels, this news was greeted by blank stares so I explained the theory behind them. “Why did you stop taking them?” asked my surgeon, “Because I suffered mild cyanide poisoning in December” says I. This news was met with looks of horror and surprise, so I explained that I’d tolerated them perfectly well but the cyanide must have built up in my system, as soon as I stopped taking them I was fine within a couple of days. “Don’t you think that is dangerous?” I was asked, “I have terminal cancer, there is no treatment available, what have I got to lose?”
So I intend to start taking them again from tomorrow, I’ll have to build up the dose again to get my body used to them but I credit them for stopping the spread and possibly reducing the enlargement of my glands. I’ll monitor my progress and hopefully I won’t suffer any side effects.
So not the best news, but I still think I have a good chance of beating this.